i’ve been. broken open.

play this softly while you read my blog, for its full effect. religion isn’t my thing anymore, i can only do relationship. theology isn’t my thing anymore, i can only do experience. it wasn’t a conscious decision i made, but the foundation of my religion inevitably crumbled because its foundation was faulty and i had no choice but to walk towards what my soul was craving; something authentic, raw, messy and real. when i walked…
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who do you think you are?

A few months ago I set some personal goals and decided that singing at open mic’s was going to be something I wanted to do regularly. I googled ‘local open mic’ and found one that was up the street from my apartment every Monday. Monday approached and I decided to check it out first before singing. Upon my arrival I noticed that the coffee shop was occupied by mostly hipsters: women with bald heads, men…
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on cultural appropriation and self-love

Last Thursday night I drove to LA to take a couple of dance classes. On my way to class I was walking up Hollywood Boulevard when I crossed paths with two Asian girls who had Senegalese Twists in their hair. Like, with synthetic kinky hair and shells adorning them. I had never seen this in my life; non-black non-celebrity individuals wearing a very Black hairstyle–with kinky hair at that. After witnessing this I experienced negative…
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on self-care

Last May 2015 I decided to be single for a while. I had just gotten out of a relationship that was on and off for three years and going nowhere fast at extreme speeds. It wasn’t my first dance with romantic love. Prior to this relationship I was in a 1.5 year long relationship with my first love that came to a mutually confusing and painful ending. After my second relationship ended for the trillionth…
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incommon

chasing you meant running away from myself wanting you meant avoiding myself and my own happiness but at that time facing myself was too scary too too scary my wounds were too heavy they would have killed me at that time loss of blood So I chased you and then I caught you it was kind of surprising. and then you fell in love with me and we would miscommunicate and you would run away…
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why not?

There’s a rate-race-dating-mentality that’s super prevalent among my fellow twenty-somethings everyones afraid no ones saying how they really feel quick to give up to force things why give up so easily? let go, sure but why, give up? men are all predisposed in the same fashion women are all predisposed in the same fashion we only vary by the level of our mental and emotional health one of my best friends and I we’re on…
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Monday Night Musings

Even on the days that I waste my time, and engage with activities that are not conducive to the sustainability of a healthy self-esteem, I just laugh it off because this whole ‘life’ thing is completely meaningless… which is fucking hilarious The spirit of God is the Highest good. It is literally heaven, and it exists within you. Us. Stop searching. You have access to it right now. like right-now-right-now. It is all you need…
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i am what i am

ascend with amber The the theme of this month is: unconditional love and acceptance, of self. Achieving this is of course a life long journey, so while on that journey, lets make the month of March one that catapults us even closer to, or maybe even all that way to, unconditional acceptance and love, of ourselves. Self-acceptance and love, are so critically important, because our whole lives are a mirror of the relationship we have with ourselves.…
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